Forsaken

Forsaken and mistaken


my mind

a pool of deception

The wisdom I carry, is just a small fractal of the unknown that is buried.

I begged you

to carry me home

though I never knew this place to ever be known

Some say they come from the deep oceans. Some say home is a place within.

Some think they come from the stars and others meet their family along the path.

Alienated from a time and space and place only known to me as human race.

I've so long neglected to see beyond my helplessness.

I blamed you. I've blamed myself.

I've blamed creation and existence for this kind of repetition.

Here we are again. Starting at point zero. But really again?

How many times have I neglected to learn, to see or to dream of something I deserve to have, yet never cared to ask. Never dared to be simply free.

I thought, I need you. I thought, I need money. I thought I need friends. I thought I need a heart.

But yet, none of it seemed to matter anymore. None of it seemed to be different anymore.

Everything was written in stone.

Everything became one, and yet, this loneliness would never leave.

I rode the synchronicity wave, I rode the frequency wave, I rode my own grave.

For a moment I could fly,

until you told me that it's not possible. Until I started to see that I was not capable. I was just human and all I could do, was react to my beliefs.

Sometime later I realized that I had no more desire to be who I have been up until now.

I realized that whoever I was or still am, has never experienced this thing called...

Honored...

One of the most beautiful things for me to experience if my art work inspires other people...and they create furhter from my initiation. For me one form of happiness is to create art and the biggest gifts for me is to receive art made for me! ;) This is a big thanks and lots of love and respect going to Elena Kulikova who I only had a brief encountering with but in this moment I learned so much from this beautiful soul and I am impressed by her eyes and imagination. Check her website and the best photos ever taken of my art work:

www.elenakulikova.com
www.elenakulikovastudios.com
www.webelovers.com

and check my artist page: www.annaeva.at

fffffffffffffound in SF

Alien maze made with rocks representing an abstract Mayan calendar ;) ha ha. Funny thing is, where did the rocks come from? There were no other rocks spotted near by, only sand. Ffffffffffound near sutro baths in SF.

 ffffound evidence!!!! George Washington was a grower!

"Himmelsstiege" (The stairs to heaven). When I was 14 years old I lived in a small Austrian town and went to boarding school on top of a hill. I had to walk about three times the amount of stairs to get from town, back home or to school. The stairs were named the stairs to heaven. But these here, truly much more speak for it's name I am giving it. Beautiful mosaic art project fffffffound in SF @ Moraga & 16th Ave in the sunset. The walk is way worth it. The view is breath taking and you can't tell unless you walk all of them stairs!

And here you can ffffffind some cool other (unrelated) things: http://ffffound.com