Forsaken

Forsaken and mistaken


my mind

a pool of deception

The wisdom I carry, is just a small fractal of the unknown that is buried.

I begged you

to carry me home

though I never knew this place to ever be known

Some say they come from the deep oceans. Some say home is a place within.

Some think they come from the stars and others meet their family along the path.

Alienated from a time and space and place only known to me as human race.

I've so long neglected to see beyond my helplessness.

I blamed you. I've blamed myself.

I've blamed creation and existence for this kind of repetition.

Here we are again. Starting at point zero. But really again?

How many times have I neglected to learn, to see or to dream of something I deserve to have, yet never cared to ask. Never dared to be simply free.

I thought, I need you. I thought, I need money. I thought I need friends. I thought I need a heart.

But yet, none of it seemed to matter anymore. None of it seemed to be different anymore.

Everything was written in stone.

Everything became one, and yet, this loneliness would never leave.

I rode the synchronicity wave, I rode the frequency wave, I rode my own grave.

For a moment I could fly,

until you told me that it's not possible. Until I started to see that I was not capable. I was just human and all I could do, was react to my beliefs.

Sometime later I realized that I had no more desire to be who I have been up until now.

I realized that whoever I was or still am, has never experienced this thing called...